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Thursday, May 24, 2007

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Monday, March 26, 2007

I have moved to my dolfin blog in http://dolfinclub.blogspot.com and I am planning on opening a blog in friendster. But I will keep this blog open for future blogging. CYA

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Thursday, November 23, 2006

Awaiting the 1 month and 22 days break before I start a new semester in SF.......

+waiting is tough... but hoping is easier....+

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Monday, November 13, 2006

You know it's kinda weird to celebrate christmas in November!! I do know that there's no definite date of when Christ's was born.. but it's still kinda weird... heheheh!! U get it, dun you?? it's like december is the right time lah... So anyway... Saturday I went to meridien hotel at 11pm.. I did the decorations.. probably a little.. like cutting stars, doing the tree.. those little things.. then we did our drama practise.. I was having such a hard time doing the multimedia... cos I had to click on subtitles and then click on the video and then scroll up to 54 subtitles again!! I almost cried at the end of practise... cos I was like really stressed up!! so anyway, we ended until 3am in the morning and we had to be there again at 8am!!! So you could see how 5 hrs of sleep is not enough for me... But anyway when I was about to like sleep.. I asked God to help me during the service tomorrow.. Help me be alert u know... Cos I get really sleepy the other time when I slept at 5am and woke up at 6.48am and went to church at 9.15am.. I ended up sleeping in church during preaching

But anyway on sunday...
hmmmm... I was quite confident that I could do the job!! Well... so I came on time.. and then I had like a brilliant idea.. Why not make 4 groups of subtitles instead of struggling with 54 subtitles?? And yeah I guess God helped me out there.. cos that idea was brilliant man!!! hehehe!!! So after making 4 groups of subtitles.. I decided to just slack and then Ci maria sang a totally different song for practise??? and I am like "Oh NO!!! I dun recall having that song in mediashout!!!" (So I panicked a little!!!) So ci yessika helped me get the lyrics and I was typing like mad cos church was gonna start in like 10 mins time!!! But amazingly... I guess it was God again... I managed to typed all 4 songs within 10 mins!!! So anyway, your probably wondering how the drama went?? Well.... I am really thankful that Ko budi helped me out!!! Ok without him I will be like clueless!! But anyway it went ok for the whole time... except for the last part where I kind of flunk it... But u know it wasn't that obvious... hehehehe!!! :) So altogether I did pretty ok... and this is really weird but when Ko dimas gave his testimony after the whole drama... he cried!!! I was like way behind.. "and I realised like he went through so much.. and without God's help I dun think he will be up there today!!!" Then Nesha came to be and said "He never cried his whole entire life" And I am like "Whoa....awesome!!!"

Here's another weird thing... we didn't know exactly what the guest preacher was gonna share today.. but the topic was about like drugs... you know??? Somehow bisa nyambung with the drama you know??? Keren right??? hahahahah!!! Like the preacher was saying how his life before ended up soooooo bad... like he took drugs and had sex you know... I think he was a womanizer u know??? But I am still amazed that what he said nyambung with the drama!!! it's just totally amazing!!!!

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

My blogging mania is over!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAH!!! Kidding!! Anyway I have 1 more month of hard labour in school... not that I am giving birth or anything... but I just wanna be free.. cos after that I wouldn't be continuing my stay in SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!

NEW SCHOOL HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!! hueheheheh!!!! :)... 2007 will be an exciting time... I just know it...

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Oh no!!! My holidays are ending?!?! so anyway...I can't believe that it's already october!!! and it was only like in 2005 where I took my N Levels.. and now it's already 1 year since I touched any studying from english to chinese!!! Oh the wonderful secondary school life... and if we actually repeated 2005 I might already be in melbourne!!! since after my maths paper last year.. I went straight home.. got my things packed and headed for melbourne to meet Koko Ari!!! :) Ok enough about 2005... it's sooooo over...

so ya tml will be a very important day for me... I will be chatting with the director of the animation and visual effects department in San Francisco.. Hopefully my english typing will still be there... my "so-called-perfect-english" hehehehe!!!! Feeling kinda nervous now... but since it's about my future I might as well wake up way early... (Actually my mum will wake me up) So ya if they really approved my standard of academics and my current position in ITE, I might stand a chance to get into AA by the end of the year... WHOOO!!! And I will start schooling there in Feb 2007.. So God help me k??? All things are definitely possible with You in my life!!!! So yeah... tml will be an exciting day... plus I will be hanging with the ex-science girls tml!!!

For the past 2 days I have been listening non-stop to Kirk Franklin's song "Imagine me".. And Non-stop meaning.. really non-stop.. like there's no stopping me from this song.. hahahah!!! The song is really, simply wonderful... like the lyrics really mean a lot.. like it builds some kind of no low self esteem.. like an encouragement song!!! All his songs are encouraging and inspiring!!!! hahahah!!!! :)

KIRK FRANKLIN

IMAGINE ME

Imagine me loving what I see

when the mirror looks at me cause I

I imagine me.

In a place, of no insecurities

and I'm finally happy cause I imagine me.

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me

cause they never did deserve me,

can you imagine me.

Saying no to thoughts that try to control me,

remembering all you told me,

Lord can you imagine me?

Over what my momma said,

and healed from what my daddy

did and I wanna live and not read that page again.

(Chorus)

Imagine me,

being free,

trusting you totally,

finally I can imagine me,

I admit it was hard to see you

being in love with someone like me,

finally I can imagine me.

Imagine me

Being strong and

not letting people break me down,

you won't get that joy this time around.

Can you imagine me?

In a world,

in a world nobody has to live afraid,

because of your love,

fear's gone away,

can you imagine me.

Letting go of my past and glad

I have another chance

and not hard to dance cause

I don't have to read that page again.

(Repeat Chorus 2x’s)

Kirk talks: This song is dedicated to people like me, those that struggle with insecurities, acceptance and even self esteem, you never felt good enough, you never felt pretty enough but imagine God whispering in your ear letting you know that everything that has happened is now.

Gone, Gone, Its’ Gone,

All Gone Repeat 8

Kirk’s remarks( Oh It’s All Gone. Every Sin, Every Mistake, Every Failure Its’ All Gone!Depression Gone By Faith It’s GoneLow Self Esteem, Halleluiah Its Gone, All Gone,It’s Gone All My Scars All My Pain It’s In The Past , Its’ Yesterday Its’ All Gone( Can’t Believe Its’ Gone) What Your Mother Did, What your Father Did, Halleluiah (Its’ Gone All Gone Oh Whoa))

Oh na-na-na-na

Oh na-na-na-na-na-na

Repeat 3 X’s

Oh na-na-na-na-na-na

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Monday, October 02, 2006

YO!!!! Anyway... haven't blogged for so long man... heheheh!! So yesterday was such an amazing day.. it was so lame!!! But it all ended too soon... so cici amel and cici yunita are here.. no wait they actually left today to malaysia for some conference with 2 other lame guys... yeah they are seriously lame but nothing could actually beat my lameness level.. so we had this mini competition over dinner last night.. who has the most jokes and obviously I am so super lame... the most jokes that ever came out of my mouth!!!! HEHEHE!!! SO FUNNY!!! and we were laughing insanely loud.. let the whole entire world hear our lameness!!! too bad it ended too soon.. cos sam was already gonna bang into the wall or hit his head on the table!! That, my friends is how entirely lame I can get over dinner.. esp when u just met ci amel and her crew for the 1st time after 7 years!!!

As you see... from yesterday's review.. u do not need to know how long I spent outside.. cos now I already have a tiny winy blister on my foot!!! Ci amel and ci yunita really know how to shop.. cos they were like shopaholics.. insane!!! they bought a lot... and the guys well... they bought more expensive things than the girls.. like sam actually bought a $400 jacket!!! Insane... but it's cool!!!!

And today I went back to tiong bahru.. I was obsessing over the Melody Carlson book!! So now I bought 2 more becos.. ya... the book really depicts a girl's life.. I wonder whether she herself experienced it before.. becos the way she describes it .. like I can actually really relate to her if she was like my friend.. we will be talking non-stop over loads of stuffs!!! heheheh!!! So I bought the next coloured series.. Like since I bought the first book "Dark Blue". I bought the next issue "Deep Green". This time the story is about jealousy.. it is like a continuation from the 1st book. But this time it is about Jordan Feugerson. The mean, popular freak.. so we are now looking into her shoes. And the other book is some diary thing about this girl.. well dun really know the full details yet but I will read it once I am done with the "Deep Green" book!!!!!!!!

After browsing at books.. I went back to the Doctor.. got some slimming pills.. *What goes in must come out* so no side effects but amazing results.. I lost 8kg in 2 months!! Great Achievement!! I need to get down to around 12 more kgs.. and I will be normal and ready for weddings ahead!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!! See me perfect soon!!!

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